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Insomnia

Posted on August 21, 2011 by princess

I just cannot sleep these days. I don’t know if it is the medication or overall because I just feel like crap and spend so much time in bed anyhow. I have NEVER been this sick in my life and it actually frightens me that I am this ill. What if I am stuck with this for the rest of my life? I honestly understand why people say F it and check out. Chronic pain is nothing to live with. It is awful and I would have never thought that this second surgery would kick my butt as much as it has. Hopefully I heal and this is a temporary thing.

It is storming. I love to hear the rumble of thunder. It’s 7 AM and I have not been to sleep yet. Yesterday I finally passed out at noon. Not good to be sleeping like crap either. I’m just all kinds of screwed up right now. I did find a house. HURRAY! Can’t wait to get moved. It is on the lake and will be putting up a dock so I can fish. It will be nice to just sit out there, hot cup of coffee and my notebook and just relax. Being away from the city will be nice. I miss the country and when I lived in Durand I really enjoyed that little town. It was so quaint, and QUIET! One of these days after I get my “big reward” I want to buy a big farm out in the boonies.

Well, I need to lay down and try to fall asleep for a few hours. It is supposed to get really nasty here from what they said. I don’t want to be TOO sound asleep if the weather goes south.

RIP Jani

Posted on August 13, 2011 by princess

I am so incredibly sad to hear about Jani Lane’s death. I think I speak for so many of my age group that Warrant defined our teen years and into our partying years. I know that I can attribute MANY memories of my youth to different Warrant songs. They are on the soundtrack of my life. Many good times had rocking out to their music, and so many concerts we went to – hanging out back at the Newport hoping to get a glimpse of the “down boys”. LOL Good times.

It is just so sad and I honestly sat down and cried when I read the news. 47 is too young to pass on to the other side. RIP Jani. Thank you for some awesome memories.

Annoyed

Posted on May 30, 2011 by princess

I am uber annoyed today. The dogs are getting on my nerves, people are getting on my nerves and all the BS that goes along with dealing with these terminal idiots. First of all, why do they think that I am concerned with what they think of me? They think a little too highly of themselves. They really should tend to the garbage in their own backyards. Skankadoo in her stinky RV that like her new BFF doesn’t care to bathe and has BO. Seriously? What’s wrong with these women? It is amazing to watch all of this from a psychological perspective. These women are nuts, and have some serious issues. I’m just tired of it, and yes I have wished death upon that old scumbag. I really don’t care if he falls over. It will be then that he will stop this insane bullshit. He is obsessed, as are they.

I just want them to go away. Now that the forum and blog are gone, I can honestly say that I feel a burden has been lifted from my shoulders. I don’t miss dealing with the morons that go along with having a TC community. They are not people that I would spend time with in real life. They are socially stunted and broken. Nearly all of them have issues. I don’t want to be bothered with their shit anymore. Writing about that old asshole is the worse mistake of many years. Now, I just want to walk away from it.

On and On It Goes

Posted on May 19, 2011 by princess

The wenches are continuing with their garbage. I am beyond over it. I think what disturbs me the most is that they have no problems going after children. When did that become okay? I know that there have been others who have made comment about kids but I do not think it is right to use children as a way to fight an adult’s battles. In the past some pretty rotten things were said on twitter using kids and I just will not ever condone that. Ever!

All this shit needs to stop.

Betrayed

Posted on May 7, 2011 by princess

I don’t even know what to think of all of this. I trusted that woman and was her friend or so I thought. Everytime she EVER talked to me she would post about it and say awful things about me. I am not a spiteful person. I don’t retaliate. I am not vicious… But they are.

Hello world!

Posted on June 1, 2010 by princess

I’m going to blog again. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment, but I sometimes feel like I need to get my words out of me, if that makes sense. Today has been rough. I’m thinking a lot about many things, but mostly how life is so short. Our words leave an echo in their wake and they continue to touch people long after they leave our lips. There is much too much strife in the world. I’m just feeling blue and trying to refocus some energy somewhere else other than my troubles.

The boys’ birthdays were yesterday and today. Hard to believe how quickly they grow up. Seems like just yesterday the youngest was an infant. Time flies.

Winnie will be home in a few weeks. I really need to start preparing for her arrival. I’ve got to find a crate for her. It’s weird though – the neighbor down the way may be getting rid of her boxer. She asked me if I wanted her, and of course I said YES. Three dogs? LOL I must be nuts, but I can’t bear the thought of her going somewhere that she might not be cared for. She’s a beautiful dog, and Willis loves her.

That’s it for now. I know this entry is short and insignificant, but will write more later.